THE BUDDHIST CARER

Phone call, oh - a fall? I'm caring at a distance. What do I do now?

I saw a swan fly. Not sure I've seen that before. Seeing, noticing.

The weight of caring. Onus. Burden. Heaviness. It's lifted. For now.

I tend to observe or narrate my experience through the lens of mind. Breathing in, making contact with all the senses, breathing out....

So, do I miss him While he's away in respite? My answer is ... no. I think about him. I wonder what he's doing. But I don't miss him. I...

The nature of mind, pure awareness. Then I hear: "We're out of loo roll!"

What do people do With all the time that they've got? Well, I'm Just Sitting. I'm on a retreat. There's nothing I need to do. So, I'm...

Nothing much to say An underlying sense of Apathy. That's all.

Hätt' ich Int'resse Nach München zu kommen? Ja klar... aber im Ernst? Online wäre leicht(er). Nun, wo ist mein Reisepass? Oder ... Nein...

When friends say 'come visit' Or 'hope to connect with you soon.' Not sure they get it.

Sitting next to him Shaking on the new sofa. Feel a bit seasick.

The cutlery drawer Now seems to be a challenge Where do the spoons go?

Facebook memory Pops up from 10 years ago. Kissing? Errr, what's that? (No photo credit as source unknown)

"Nice consistency!" the porridge Meister just said. Quite the accolade.

He feels not quite sure what time it is, what to do... Disoriented.

Between 9 and 12 is when they said they'd be here. Whose time counts the most?

Chinese leftovers - from last night's dinner - for lunch. One of my favourites.

"I'm tired" doesn't touch the sheer exhaustion I feel. Weary to my bones.

Ich fühle mich wohl wenn ich mich auf Deutsch verweil'. Ich habe Reiselust!

Seeing people's posts Of trips, near or far away. Fear of missing out.