THE BUDDHIST CARER

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Christmas

Christmas Eve is here Preparations underway Some things never change. Two bathrooms cleaned Bedding sorted for our guest. Hubbie is...

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Dec 24, 20231 min read

Festive season

Christmas approaches. More shopping done than usual. The caring goes on.

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Dec 23, 20231 min read

Wishes

"I would like to die with a pair of secateurs in my hand" he says.

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Dec 15, 20231 min read

Finland

Please come to Finland Just for a half day meeting. Can't see that happ'ning.

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Dec 12, 20231 min read

Confusion

Up four times last night. His confusion off the scale. So vulnerable.

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Dec 8, 20231 min read

Making it up (as I go along)

Saw this on Facebook, It rang a few bells for me. Pretty much clueless.

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Dec 7, 20231 min read

Ruling out…

Bloods tests been done to rule out an infection. If only it was.

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Dec 7, 20231 min read

To-do

Letting people down, or looking after me? Need to say "no" more! That dreaded list of things I said I'd happily do is more like a noose....

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Dec 6, 20231 min read

Work

I'm back at work now. It's a way to use my brain And forget the rest.

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Dec 5, 20231 min read

Sadness

I've just heard some news. The worst you can imagine. How that mother mourns.

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Dec 4, 20231 min read

Energy

Not sustainable Waiting hand and foot on him. Conserve energy!

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Dec 3, 20231 min read

Winter

Foggy and freezing, A stay-at-home kind of day. Who wants a hot tea?

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Dec 3, 20231 min read

Home

Off the scale confused, dehydrated, exhausted. Whose respite was that?

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Dec 1, 20231 min read

FOMO (part 2)

Missing out on things professionally just sucks! It seems so unfair.

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Nov 30, 20231 min read

Home

He comes home today from a week in a care home. Is that home from home?

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Nov 30, 20231 min read

At a distance

Phone call, oh - a fall? I'm caring at a distance. What do I do now?

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Nov 29, 20231 min read

Swan

I saw a swan fly. Not sure I've seen that before. Seeing, noticing.

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Nov 28, 20231 min read

Heaviness

The weight of caring. Onus. Burden. Heaviness. It's lifted. For now.

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Nov 28, 20231 min read

Direct experience

I tend to observe or narrate my experience through the lens of mind. Breathing in, making contact with all the senses, breathing out....

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Nov 28, 20231 min read

Missing

So, do I miss him While he's away in respite? My answer is ... no. I think about him. I wonder what he's doing. But I don't miss him. I...

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Nov 27, 20231 min read

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A SPACE FOR ME TO CONTEMPLATE…

Welcome to my blog, a space where I used to contemplate being a Buddhist and being a carer. I was what’s known as an unpaid carer, but actually I “just” looked after my husband who had Parkinson’s.

My husband died in summer 2025 and I'm now navigating life beyond caring. I'm not ready to let go of this 'buddhistcarer' space, so will continue to share mindful musings as they arise.

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THE BUDDHIST CARER

Christmas

Festive season

Wishes

Finland

Confusion

Making it up (as I go along)

Ruling out…

To-do

Work

Sadness

Energy

Winter

Home

FOMO (part 2)

Home

At a distance

Swan

Heaviness

Direct experience

Missing

A SPACE FOR ME TO CONTEMPLATE…

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