THE BUDDHIST CARER

He feels not quite sure what time it is, what to do... Disoriented.

Between 9 and 12 is when they said they'd be here. Whose time counts the most?

Chinese leftovers - from last night's dinner - for lunch. One of my favourites.

"I'm tired" doesn't touch the sheer exhaustion I feel. Weary to my bones.

Ich fühle mich wohl wenn ich mich auf Deutsch verweil'. Ich habe Reiselust!

Seeing people's posts Of trips, near or far away. Fear of missing out.

A bowl of porridge Evokes retreat conditions Just for a moment.

Having a shower Well, it's quite a palaver. Could slip any time.

Haven't had a drink Too busy badgering him Just drink more, Suzanne!

The fear of maybe. He might fall; perhaps he'll choke. Better stay home.

As weeks go, this has been quite a week. Hubbie was away with a friend at the weekend, and I managed to have a couple of nice days out....

"You deserve a life" the nurse said to me today. I had no idea.

This weekend's respite A glimpse of my life unlived. Reality check!

He's on his way home How do I feel about that? My body tells me.

Browning leaves falling Into the river at lunch. Autumn sun, welcome!

Relaxing takes time A process of letting go Be more Penny-dog.

Oh, what a relief He's away for three nights now. Tea, toast and TV!

Just look at that rain! The washing won't dry today Tumble dryer's on.

Realised today: I don't like accepting help. Tend to self-destruct.

When the carer's ill Who cares for them? Who comforts? And who makes the tea?